December 29, 2010 § Leave a comment
Gyoko = Unexpected Happiness
This word struck me when I watched “How to Date an Otaku Girl The Movie” earlier.
I wasn’t planning to watch it or any movie at all tonight. I was set to finish cleaning up my room in time for New Year but i really felt lazy (again… @_@) and opted to watch a Japanese film instead.
Hinata is a college student in love with Yoriko, a co-worker at a former part-time job. At the start of the movie, Hinata asked Yoriko to date him. Before answering though, she warns him that she is a “fujoshi otaku”. Not knowing what “fujoshi” is, Hinata immediately assures Yoriko that he’s cool with that.
As you might already know, “otaku” is a Japanese term for people with obsessive interests. It’s not uncommon but what Hinata finds out is that a “fujoshi otaku” is one that is obsessed with B-L or “Boys Love”.
LOL. Imagine the hilarity!
As expected, it is a very funny. Not over the top. Just the right mix. For me, that is.
What surprised me is how I felt during the sad part of the movie. It was just a series of very simple scenes. There wasn’t any sad background music and there wasn’t even much crying. ‘cept for the part where Yoriko… oh wait, I can’t write what happened here ahaha.
Anyway, you get my drift. So it was very simple and might I say, plain. But, it really tugged at my heart. It almost made me cry. If my brother wasn’t in my room, I probably would have already.
It has now made me analyze myself which kinda sucks. It’s making me feel uncomfortable. I’m well and haven’t been emotional for the last two years. I don’t want it to change.
Three failed attempts at a decent romantic relationship in a span of two years didn’t make me give up. But it sure scares me a lot. More than I care to admit. I’m not particularly interested or ready to attempt anew. Thus, the declined proposal. I’m not gonna talk about that ’cause it will surely result to at least 4 ‘are you serious?’ conversations. Haha.
After publishing this, I’m gonna allow myself to feel all the emotions brought about by watching the movie. Just for tonight. And hope that tomorrow brings me my “Gyoko”.